Monday, November 16, 2009
why do i need to start blogging after so long?not just because it's time for my next trip (to bali in jan!)
but because i felt i needed to start writing again.
does this count as writing? i don't know. but it sure does feel good.
an avenue to just breathe out and let go. no worries. no one to judge.
how's life for me? hmmm. a whole load of question marks i guess.
i'm now single and not available. i'm definately not looking for a partner cos i'm frankly sick of trying so hard to please my partner in relationships and i just need a break. why did G and i break up after six fucking long years?
simple.
he was too busy with work to ever have time for me. and he just can't live with the word marriage or commitment.
thank god it ended sooner not later. i am relieved but i'm angry. why didnt he tell me earlier, or why put me through all the pain and the tearful nights? but yes i'm quite over it. i dont look at him anymore and go "ohhhh i love him". i just can't. there is no. more. love.
how is work?
work is good too. can't believe today is the day i end my 2.5 year bond officially! i am free to resign anytime! hahaha. which i dont think i would do. cos i am quite enjoying work minus the fact i hate ippt.
i love my colleagues. well i can safely say 95% of them. i'd rather not name who i enjoy being in the company with but maybe i'll name them with nicknames. soon. not now. but it's been good fun. ktv-ing, clubbing like krazie!, drinking and the occasional chill-out nights.
i love it. the freedom, the fun and the friends i'm with.
apart from work, there are my sec school friends whom i'm finally in good close touch with. that's good. being single gives me time to appreciate my friends and family more.
and then there's someone who makes my heart skip a beat everytime i see him from afar. no i'm not in love with him. no we'll never be together. no you'll never understand cos ur not me.
but he's my secret angel.
the one who's always been making me smile after a teary night. the one who knows that i prefer peanut waffles to chocolate ones. the one whose text i love to read over and over again because he makes me laugh. the one who really makes me feel like im worth it. why are my days brighter? because i know at the back of my head, no matter what happens, he'll be there to play my MJ songs.
i really like u both. the other person. u know who u are drunkard. :)
Sunday, February 15, 2009
Have i told you how excited i am?hahahaha. i am very very excited.
i keep telling myself. just one more shift of work and i'll be flying off. Of course after my exams lah..which will be over on thursday!
and this time next week, i'll be in siem reap, all templed out. probably half day and half asleep in my guesthouse.
finally finalised my itenary. thank god i found a really good place to stay in phnom penh. it has been a crazy week, trying to confirm hotels within my budget. no point paying so much when i'm travelling alone. but i told myself, though i'm probably only staying in the hotel at night to sleep and will be out pretty much the whole day, i definately need a guesthouse with a good safe enough location, within 20usd and of course has to have a television. i dont even mind if there is no aircon as most guesthouses come equipped with either. but after getting some feedback, a television is definately a must. especially since i wont be bringing my laptop over. so i do need some form of company or entertainment.
yay.
so yeah went a bit out of my budget for the hotel in phnom penh. my uncle told me to get a proper form of lodging in phnom penh cos the place hosts the world's biggest mafias and drug dealers and they usually do their business in small time hotels, so he told me to be a abit more cautious there. siem reap is safer than bkk he says. so thank god i extended my trip in siem reap.
i cant wait to meet laura too! she's this super nice girl i met on a cambodia travellers forum on facebook. we both realised we were travelling alone and were gonna be around the same area but she's gonna be based in phnom penh all the way for a volunteer project, so we agreed to meet up for drinks.
meeting kavi tmr. we're going shoppping! and i am craving for onion masala thosai. hahaha :) since we're probably gonna end up at mustafa cos i need to change money, why not huh kavi? :) thosai, vadai or me? hahahaha.
pleasant surprise this morning when i ended work and opened my locker. dove chocolates. hahahaha with a bad throat but WHO CARES! i ate it anyway. :)
work. sucks. period. more and more political everyday and sometimes the way the young guys talk. gosh. they really gossip much more than girls. but who cares again? i have one more shift. and i'm not gonna see anyone nor hear from anyone for 7 whole days!
yay me.
need to start packing now.
Wednesday, February 11, 2009
what the hell is happening to the world today?first it was the mumbai bombings..and now some asshole of an arsonist sets wild raging fires in Australia? one of the only countries that has been relatively peaceful till now?
i mean 181 people dead. and they're all innocent. mothers. kids. and even animals. wildlife endangered animals.
how much of a heartless bastard can he be?
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In case you dunno.. taken from http://www.msn.com/, Local CFA firefighter David Tree shares his water with an injured Australian Koala at Mirboo North after wildfires swept through the region. real sad.
ahh. thats why i always tell my mum. its never safe anywhere. when u least expect it, even the safest nation may be under threat. look at the psychos in the world nowadays. she thinks that im crazy to go to cambodia alone. but look at the millions of backpackers in the world today. at least half of which are females. u gotta take care of your own safety thats for sure..and of course be careful especially at night blah blah. whatever i would apply here i would apply there as well. and no clubbing. especially NOT alone. hahaha
thats why..on a lighter note..you should travel more! explore wads left of the world before it gets destroyed. :)
which is why i'm so happy..cos i've got exactly 8 days! this time next week i will be on the bus on my way to Siem Reap! can't wait can't wait.
so many things to do..so little time.
Saturday, February 7, 2009
so i finally re-created my blog. i'm officially back for good and this time i'm gonna write my username and password somewhere for me to remember. life's been a okay. a bitch at times and of course there are its good moments. like today. thaipusam. woke up at 3am to go to the temple with mum's side and ganesh of course came along cos its a yearly thing we do together as a family and moreover his parents are not in town. so for a good holy cause, i invited him to join us.i'm half dead. exhausted as really had not slept well in the past 2 days and am not feeling to well at the moment too. but something to look forward to would be the movie i'm gonna watch in about 3 hours!
yay. movies always keep me happy. so does a ben & jerrys during the movie.
and..
i officially have 13 more days to go! WOOOO. and 12 more days for my exams. hahaha. so yeah. missyree its time to start studying and stop slacking!